So this post is a bit of a special one, if you follow me on any social media you may know that on Monday night I had the amazing opportunity to see Demi Lovato live in concert. I was lucky enough to win a contest on the beautiful Ande’s blog The Beauty Blog to not only attend the concert but to meet Demi herself. This tour is sponsored by Tampax and is all about #BeRadiant, which in a sense means to embrace your self worth and inner beauty and let your radiance shine through in your confidence and what you wear. It is all about being individual and celebrating that individuality. I was really happy to find out that Tampax was sponsoring the tour because that message is something I truly believe in and that leads me to my next point. I don’t want this post to be the typical “this is what I did” sort of thing, I try to be really truly genuine and honest on my blog every single day and today is no different so I am going to be real with you and tell you my story. The story that will help you understand why this was more than just a concert to me, this was the absolute best night of my life and a night I will never forget.
Now my story is not the happiest or the easiest to swallow, so please if you are sensitive, don’t read this but it is important to me that I am honest and that my readers can relate to the real person behind the blog. I am not perfect, I don’t always wear makeup and I don’t always have a smile on my face. I have insecurities and bad days just like you but I am thankful for what I have and where I am today. From a really young age (about 8) I was overwhelmed by insecurities, I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and very much afraid of the world. This anxiety made me very scared of other people and socialization which in turn led to bullying. Years of bullying eventually led me down the dark path of depression and ultimately anorexia. I struggled with anorexia from the age of 10 to 21, bouncing from one treatment to the next and plying my depression with other forms of self harm. From the very beginning, one of the only things that offered me any sort of comfort was music and Demi was one person who really spoke to me for reasons I still don’t understand. Music was the only thing that seemed to calm my anxiety and give me piece of mind while my life was out of control. Unfortunately music couldn’t fight the shame and self-hate that I was dealing with. I was in my 4th attempt at treatment when Demi released Skyscraper and for some reason everything changed. Her words spoke to me at a level that other music hadn’t been able to, it gave me hope and made me realize I wasn’t alone and for the first time in years I actually cared about living. Skyscaper was my turning point and from that point on I was on the road to recovery with Demi’s music in my pocket. Now a few years later, I am living a happy and healthy life that I didn’t think was possible. I still have my days but overall I am a new woman and in my mind, I have Demi to thank for that. So to have the opportunity to thank her in person was my dream come true. I can now confidently say that I am a warrior and a survivor and I will never take a day for granted ever again. If you are struggling with any sort of mental health please seek treatment, it may not seem like its working and it may take a few tries but you will succeed and you will survive. Now that I am done sharing, I hope you enjoy the few photos I took and remember to stay strong.